Scattered thoughts

Hello friends, I'm still here at the ashram, toiling away on the path of self-improvement.
My mind is turning towards home and the things in my life I want to change when I get back. I'm in a period of transition right now and I'm not entirely sure what my life will be like in 6 months. So, I'm trying to learn things here that are internal--things I can focus on, no matter what is going on around me.
First, I'm learning a lot of things about my yoga practice that I haven't thought about before. I have a class every day where we're talking about anatomy and yoga postures, etc. The focus is on using the postures to remove energy blocks in the body. I'm trying to create more mindfulness while I'm practicing yoga. According to this class I'm in, hatha yoga is about creating awareness of not only our gross physical bodies (bone, muscles, skin, etc), but more importantly awareness of our subtle bodies (blood vessels, lymphatic system, organs, energy flows). I'm trying to shift my awareness to this subtle body through my practice.
The other thing I came here to work on is the anxiety I get over, well, lots of stuff. I've been thinking about it and I think I have a really deep fear of failure and a fear of not meeting my own expectations. I talked with one of the teachers here yesterday and I'm going to work on separating the action from the fruits of the action. We need to perform our tasks and jobs well, skillfully, mindfully because we want to, that's our duty. But, we need not identify with the outcomes of those labors. Not sure if this makes sense, but it does to me! I think it's about questioning our own motivations in the things we undertake--am I going to school because I want to learn? Or am I going because of what other people will think, etc? I am going because I want to. I need to remember that and take joy in the process, rather than being attached to the outcomes.
These are some of the things I'm thinking about and working on.
Hugs,
Lauren